Tuesday, May 20, 2008

How can I share my disappointment?

from Julie

What I struggle with when it comes to waiting is not the 2WW part, but the longer term.

When you make this decision to become a mother, it takes commitment on so many levels. The life you know before being a mother is very different from the one after becoming a mother. When going through one failed attempt after another, whether it's inseminations or adoptions, it is so difficult to gauge how to adjust to the disappointment.

And the people in your life -- friends and family -- don't fully understand this path you are on even when they are supportive of your decision.

For me, knowing if I should tell people I've had yet another IUI or not is tricky. I was elated after the first one and didn't hold back about telling people if they wanted to know my story. Now, it feels like it's just a burden to tell some of my friends because they don't know how to support me. And truthfully, I don't know the answer to that, either. I don't know if a dialogue about it helps or hurts when I could be in a state of bliss or a state of despair after that 2WW.

If only my crystal ball could tell me what the future has in store for me!

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